“Beautiful, the mess we are
The honest cries of breaking hearts
Are better than a Hallelujah”
This quote comes from the chorus of one of my favorite songs. I just love how Amy Grant takes vulnerable, real moments in life and shows how they all make us beautiful in God’s eyes.
Those words let us know that there’s nothing wrong with having an ugly cry, screaming to the top of our lungs, having a prideful moment, or feeling like we want to give up.
It is at those times, we are honest and realize the weight of our cares is too heavy a load to carry within ourselves.
And that, is better than a mask of joy or some artificial praise any day.
I spent years being insecure, prideful and angry. I didn’t like the way I looked, never thought I was good enough to receive anything great in my life, and was too independent for my own good. I spent every moment holding on to past hurts and injustices, and replaying them in my mind.
I was a mess.
But I wouldn’t dare let anybody know it.
On the outside, I smiled…laughed…and made it seem like everything was okay. I was afraid of being judged or talked about behind my back.
It didn’t occur to me until years later that we are all a mess in some way or another, and we don’t need to hide our true selves.
Afterall, no one is perfect.
We all have room to grow, learn, change.
And that’s life. It’s a journey.
I like to think that to be imperfect is to be human, to be real, and it’s nothing to be ashamed of.